|Imagining Vuillard's Bouquet (oil on canvas 30 x 30cm)|
The first few days of my weeks feel busy with life drawing, a visit to the care home and a morning in Ipswich at the refugee centre. So even though I draw everyday, on Thursday mornings I can feel unsure. It's not that I have a lack of ideas, it's more that I have at least two whole days stetching ahead and I don't remember where I was and what comes next. It would be easy to do all the other things that I have neglected but I go into the studio and I begin.
I was tempted to paint over something I had hoped I'd finished but I stopped myself. It felt tight and joyless but I have a habit of painting over instead of waiting or solving a problem. I was already frustrated and I hadn't even got my brushes out. I and then, sometimes when I feel like I can't paint, I can trick myself into painting and something simple and surprising appears.
|Flowers On Orange Tablecloth (oil on canvas 40 x 40)|
With my painting, I am trying to let the painting tell me what to do instead of recording what I see. The painting on the bottom became the painting on the top. I think it may change again...
|Carnations, Christmas Beads and Smoking Jacket (pastel on paper 6 x 6cm)|
And I continue to draw my beads.