|Orange Roses and Fan oil on canvas 40 x 40 cm|
At the moment, when I draw, I'm focused on a few competing concerns:
- making order out of confusion
- rhythm, including pattern, light, marks, shapes
When I began this painting I decided to work from something I would choose to draw by building what I thought was an interesting interplay of colour, light and shape. When I make a drawing I usually complete it the same day. It's different for me with painting. In order to acheive the same sense of colour and light when working in oils I need to let the paint dry and come back to it over a period of time. Flowers don't last and I find that working from a photo immediately changes the feel of the painting. I also find sustaining the mood over a period of days is difficult too. Usually I change what I want to say with time, but in this case, even though the flowers had died and I had invent some to make the painting work; even though tthe background had fallen away from the wall, tape had come undone, etc, the finished painting feels believeable and as though one moment in time.
Looking at paintings on Pinterest has helped me to trust my still life paintings and given me license to do what makes my heart sing.