The Painting is Always King

Kingdom of Flora (30 x 20 cm) egg tempera on panel

I set up the still life for this painting on the 13th of July. Between then and now I finished a portrait for an NHS Hero, did plenty of pastel drawings in my sketchbooks, and gessoed 38 panels - this panel was the last of my bigger panels.  The new panels are all bigger and they have a coat of rabbit skin glue, followed by nine coats of gesso and then another coat of rabbit skin glue. There is a lot of waiting for things to dry. It's laborious but also uplifting - so much hope. The panels took two days this time.   I'm not sure when I actually began this painting but I certainly had something down over last weekend. It was stop and go but I also had a few problems from the outset.  The set up was more square than horizontal and the only panel I had was a long panel, . The flowers didn't live very long, at all.  The Gazanias died in about half a day. I couldn't really replace the flowers once they'd died.  It is the start of my dahlia season, there weren't any new ones blooming yet. I wasn't really convinced by the colours in the arrangement at all.  When I put the colours I saw on the panel, there was always something discordant, or simply ugly about it. But I I wasn't going to let that stop me.

Although I have plenty of objects to choose from, I like to vary what I am looking at and imagine people like to see different things. As a compulsive charity shopper, Covid 19 has forced me into a less consumerish way of working.  I have nothing new and exciting to begin the dialogue between the objects.

Still, as I was painting I began adding objects to the the still life to try to 'fix' things. I covered colours and objects  up and to change what I was looking at to make the composition work horizontally and to find a balance.  IT IS MUCH BETTER TO PLAN YOUR STILL LIFE CAREFULLY SO YOU DON'T HAVE TO REARRANGE ON THE PANEL. One day I decided that I needed an orangeish shape on the right hand side.  I trawled through Pinterest until I found what I needed. The plums rotted. The leaves shrivelled up and I had to redraw things as I brought fresh items to the table. On Friday (looking at my third bouquet) I remembered it was OK to paint what I needed, not what I saw. I was suddenly Rousseau looking at my tabletop peaceable kingdom. 

I think I'm convinced by it now, or is too stylised?

what I began with